cuteandcompact

Sometimes i wish i was someone else. Most of the time actually. It just feel like there's so much wrong with me. I have issues, i know i do, I just dont really know what they are... My sister says im as emotional as a rock. I guess thats what i wish i was. I wish i couldnt feel sertain things, so i try to ignore them. I guess i have some difficulties accepting who i am. I very often catch myself wishing i was someone else... someone with proper issues or someone who seem to have none. I usually compair myself to my sister, I dont know why but i for some reason always sorta wished i was like her. I dont understand why really, whats so amazing about her? Whats so much better with anyone else for that matter? Why do i keep telling myself im less worthy then anyone else. Yes i wish i could be someone else, but who doesnt? Who doesnt want to get away from their everyday lives and do something unexpected and crazy. But i guess we dont really need to wish we were other people. I know im not the same person i was a few years ago. Changing can be good, for some people, but how do we really know that we've changed? I mean i think ive gone though a good change. I went from small emo, who hardly spoke to anyone, who was extreamly nervous all the time and who wasnt comfortable with myself. I think i've actually managed to get away from the emo stuff, i've found a little more courage to speak and im less nervous and im even a little more comfortable with myself. I guess it takes time to find yourself. Its just a long road... Or to quote a bad movie, life's a climb, but the view is great.

The more i think about it, the more i like the way i am.. No im not 100% satesfied with myself. But i dont think there is anyone who is. Im sure there are people who like me for me, and its nothing that is worth staying up all night thinking about.